Hey x_BabyG_x , thanks for sharing your story!

I am glad that you were able to stay (relatively) safe throughout your ordeal. There were a couple of things you mentioned that concerned me, particularly taking pain medication (that's what co-comadol is, right?) while driving and ending up so far away from home with no means of being able to get back on your own. The way you "lost your head" (as you put it) sounds EXACTLY like some of my own manic episodes and should definitely be cause for concern.

I see that you don't have any meds listed in your signature (not that you need to), which leads me to wonder if you're currently taking any mood stabilizers or anti-psychotics? If you're not, can you ask whoever your main doctor is about going on lamictal or lithium or something like that? I don't know how mental health treatment works in the UK, but in the US the way you're acting could quickly land you inpatient (that's speaking from my own experience). Maybe you should consider going IP or IOP before the mania goes totally off the rails?

Anxiety has been a big problem for me as well. I used to have a prescription for klonopin which worked really well for me, but I can no longer get it prescribed on account of my history of substance abuse. Now I use other coping strategies like attending support group meetings, pre-occupying myself with a healthy distraction like writing music or reading, and aroma therapy.

I know this answer was kind of all over the place, but there was a lot in your post worth responding to. Hopefully I didn't offend you or sound too preachy, I'm just trying to be honest and provide some insight.