Understand! When I was new I was in a fun dysphoric mixed mania thing and I was constantly apologizing because I felt like I was always saying the same thing, way too often and out of control. Later it was variations on a theme as things changed. It's so hard to know how anyone is actually doing on here so I figure you do your best and try to follow cues from others the best you can. None of us are experts at social skills after all.....