I have found that this depression has knocked me for a loop. Evenings are pretty good.. almost normal good even. The rest of the day sucks and I have problems being alone for a previously independent woman. Today I asked my pdoc over the phone for hope and strength...as this has been so long of a journey and it just is forever and endless. He said that he had to go. Basically I was whining...embarrassing but true and even have considered seeking more help via the hospital. Alas, I just keep working and want to conquer this hoooooha within me.

I feel so weak and now feel even more at odds with my pdoc but it must be for a reason. I know he knows the answers should be within me but they are not always there during the day.

How do YOU find your strength within? Hope? Peace? Faith that things WILL work out? Etc..

I swim generally 4-5 times a week or go to water aerobics and that does help but that is after work. What do you do or what do you tell yourself to keep yourself safe and moving forward?

Also, when depressed, how can I stop talking about it. I am so self involved but that is the depression. Meds take time and I have to have faith they will assist with all that I need to do.

Thanks for your input. Sadly it is time to take meds and go to bed so I can wake again... and around and around we go.

Keep it positive if possible but neutral is o.k.. I just can not take alot of flack right now. THanks.