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Originally Posted by George H.
Can you clarify things a bit more by telling us if you are really talking about dreams or conscious thoughts or somewhere in between?
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Thanks, @George H
Hmmm. I suspect these demons are like leeches that attach themselves to people and then manipulate the behavior of their hosts to generate more of the spiritual energies that the demons consume. They probably accomplish this by scripting dreams that slowly condition us to have the desired behaviors. For example, I had a drinking problem, and I remember waking up after one of these awful dreams, noticing a glass of bourbon balanced on the arm of the sofa where I had fallen asleep. Then I heard a disembodied voice say something (auditory hallucination to skeptics I suppose). It was the most hate-filled, chilling voice I have ever heard, and it seemed to be telling me it's name and it's purpose in my life as a taunt. The awful dream followed by hearing that voice after waking up left me very shaken and depressed.
I don't understand it all, but there is a pattern. I think these shenanigans in my dreams happen more often than I realize. I only know about it when I become lucid, and that is not too common for me.
On the other hand, I know that I should be sensible and not believe in these things. I don't know anything for certain. I juggle possibilities.
I don't know if that clarifies. Another factor in all of this is a feeling of inferiority and insignificance. I have read that delusional disorder hits people in middle age. That is when people have the mid-life crisis. The delusions make that person feel significant. If the CIA is monitoring a person, then that person must be important. (I am almost 50 so that fits.) So if I could develop my social life so that I feel value in more normal ways then I suspect the delusional thoughts would no longer be needed and diminish. I have also found that these ideas go away when I get more rest.
I think mostly I am o.k. I suspect my psychological issues are sort of a perverted way to make conversation and draw attention to myself. I need to start thinking of myself as mentally well instead of mentally ill, and I need to stop saying silly things. I am working on it.