Hello boogiemash: Well... the Skeezyks is not in a position to say what it may be that is causing your current difficulties. But one thing he does know, from personal experience, is that med changes seem to throw everything off balance for a period of time. So if your t is "tweaking" your med's it is probably to be expected that you're going to feel off-balance for awhile, both physically & mentally. Sure, you may feel sad at your romantic prospects. But it may be the med changes that are making you feel more emotional about them at the present time.

Personally, the Skeezyks would not consider simply wondering if you'd be better off dead to be suicidal thought. But then the Skeezyks is no expert in such matters... although he does have his own suicidal thoughts on pretty-much a daily... sometimes hourly basis.

Best wishes...