As always... your opinion is appreciated...

According to traditional therapy... one would think that I have taken a "step" backwards.. but I truely think that the T's are still learning about DID or MPT>>>so I am not so sure that they are correct...

I started out with many... many alters.. and "ego states" so have made progress. according to traditional therapy.. by integrating those alters into the remaining alters..

What does non-integration buy me??
well.... I trust each and everyone of my remaining alters - "I" am still living my "life".. though thru an alter... they are very, very good at managing life circumstances...
I have many, many different friends.. that I would not have if I were "all together"... my alters are "beloved" as they are... so my long term friends.. of many, many years.. wouldn't be friends.. cause we would not "click"..
It makes life.. satisfying... otherwise I would most likely be a "put together" person.. with still many problems..

And truely... after all these years... I don't mind missing time.. when I was young.. it did..really did.. as I age.. well I don't..

Effort..... integration... takes much.. much.. effort.. again.. at my age with my experiences... have lived a very full life.. so now wish to put my effort towards.. enjoying life.. rather than working at integration..

What are your thoughts.. regarding... age factor and wanting to integrate... don't you think it makes a difference.. whether.. you are young and have your whole life ahead of you or not??