(((((finestitcher))))) i understand. i, too, am lacking enthusiasm. can't experience pleasure, joy, or excitement. i know. oh, hey, you live in south central pennsylvania. i live in du bois (clearfield county). my hubby and i moved here from the state of indiana 2 1/2 years ago. my hubby drives 2 hours to take me to pittsburgh to see a pdoc there. most pdocs don't understand a deaf person with depression. i have treatment-resistance, too. meds either don't work or work for a short period of time, like in 2 weeks, and fizz out.