confused,

I can't really know what your T is thinking, but I can tell you what I was thinking when I read that you told him he could cancel your appointment if he wants, with the insinuation that he needs a break from you and you are willing to help him out by sacrificing your session for his wellbeing. I was thinking that you were hoping he'd reassure you, rather than take you up on the offer. He might have seen it that way too and you know, it's a kind of manipulation, like a game. So, he may be refusing to play the game by allowing you to cancel, and taking you at your word.

It is not your responsibility to take care of your therapist! He is responsible for making sure he isn't overworked. He knows this. It sounds like you are playing the martyr with him (sorry, I've done it too-nothing to feel ashamed about) by trying to take on the responsibilty that isn't yours, like donating your sessions to give him relaxation time, but then you are upset that he accepts the offer. Maybe he is saying OK because he wants you to take responsibility for your choice to cancel.

In your email, you even upped the ante by saying you would give up even more sessions if he needs, indefinitely. Again, he takes you at your word as an adult and doesn't play.

And you are feeling like he is abandoning you? You are clearly the one who is doing the abandoning here.

It sounds like your T has been overworked due to his own lack of boundaries, allowing phone calls on weekends or afterhours and perhaps he wants to stop doing that.He says he ha sto stop working on his days off. Why did that trigger you to start giving up your sessions?

I remember one time canceling my T appt impulsively because I was angry about something that happened at my prior session. I wanted her to be concerned about it, to ask me to reconsider cancelling, but she said OK. I stewed about it for awhile. I was even more angry and thought she doesn't even care that I canceled when she KNOWS I'm upset. After a day of thinking, I decided to call her and ask if my appointment time was still available. She said it was and put me back on the schedule. I learned something then. she was not going to beg me to come in, or delve into why i wanted to cancel. she was going to take me at my word, and as an adult, I'm free to cancel my appointments. She treated me like an adult. She refused to play the game.