It's now 11 PM and I did not call him today.

Only problem is I'm sort of feeling like a mess right now. Under normal circumstances I would seriously consider calling and leaving a message so that he can call me back tomorrow.

But this whole absence thing has %#@&#! me up. I don't feel like I can call. For some reason I feel weird about just leaving him a message saying "I'm having bad thoughts, etc, etc, etc...." And then he calls back tomorrow and I tell him about it... NO. Nonononono. And I feel kinda bad, like he just got back so I shouldn't bombard him with my %#@&#!. And then there's this little part of me that is saying..... what's the point of calling? There is no point.

BLAH. DIsconnected now.