Okay, I know you guys now believe I am truly nuts but.......

I got to T's parking lot about an hour ahead of schedule, not that I was anxious to see him or anything. I sat in my car for a while and then went upstairs, whiled away a few minutes in the bathroom and went inside to sit. Another woman came in. HE had double booked. (LOL). I chatted with her and she was rather nice. When he came out he sent her packing.

When I walked into his room, all my fears and all my anxiety just melted away. I sat down, our eyes met and I said, "I'm glad you're back." It was a really good session. Together, we made sense of the phone calls. He was right there with me. I let go of the shame. There was some anxiety but we talked through it. I left feeling good about myself, about him and about the relationship.

If he ever goes on vacation again, I'll have to kill him.

Thank you friends for all of your support.