Mac, there was no relationship. Stop using that word to describe it. It was a friendship at the most.

I don't remember that she cut you off. I thought you did that to her after you found out she was in a new relationship.

A decent way to measure the friendship- did you actually make plans or just run into each other? Did you do anything beyond spend time in a coffee shop? Did either of you visit the other at their home?

You've got to start really accepting and seeing it for what it was. You can list the facts but you cling to your dreams.

I know it's hard to do. That's why I keep giving you suggestions of things to look into doing. Which I know you haven't done. Having healthy interactions with people who are also looking for interaction (which is a guarantee when someone joins something like a club) will help you.