((((((((Pinksoil)))))))))

Take my advice and call. He would not have changed his message if he didn't want the calls now.

My whole deal was about asking for what you need. I know T would want you to call -- you have told us that he said you should. The point is to call T when you feel like you do. Yes, he exists still and yes, you two are in therapy togethe rstill.

Please call him right now. It's okay. Really.

And take gentle care. Be good to yourself.

((((safehugs))))