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It's so good to see a post from you!!!

When I feel in despair, as you sound like you do, I find there are no magic answers. I try reading first and foremost because if I can lost myself in a book, then sometimes by the time I get out of it, I feel a little better. Or, the book itself can help to shift the mood. I used to absolutely love Ann Tyler books. Have you ever read her? Pure fiction, beautiful writing and realistic characterizations. You would enjoy "Back When We Were Grownups."
And, if reading is too hard because I don't have the concentration, then books on tape are an option. I love them.

I also use my blessed relaxation tapes. they got me through the most difficult depression last winter when my son was sick. It's so good that you are swimming--the brain chemicals that are released during exercise really help fight depression.

I don't know how you can stop talking about your depression. I don't think you should stop. I think that we need to keep talking. So, it's a good thing you are back so you can talk talk talk to us to your heart's content!!

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Take gentle care and be good to yourself. I think you are very brave.