You're just like me when I'm depressed. I'm single, so I start worrying that I'll never have a relationship, that I'll always be alone, I'm too ugly for anybody, I'm a loser, everybody hates me, etc.. One time it got so bad that I completely avoided everybody in school. (This was 4 years ago when I was an undergrad in college.) I chose not to talk to anyone because I was convinced nobody would ever want to talk to me. Then I was debating if I should kill myself since I felt like my life was meant to be miserable

Depression messes with your head like that, and it really sucks.

Sorry if I don't have any useful advice, but I'm letting you know you're not alone.

Hopefully you can muster the strength to pull yourself through it. But I will tell you, my life has gotten a lot better since my meds have been properly tweaked. I was feeling the same way as you. I hope you can hang in there