One of the 2 companies I thought might offer me a position did. The one of the 2 that I wanted to.

The power of good vibes/prayer/energy/thoughts/feelings? Dunno.

Here's the interesting thing. My instantaneous reaction when I got the call? Elation? Relief? Pride?

No, no, and no.

I felt terror, nausea, and dread. My first thought was, "I hope that I don't f- this up somehow."

I would like someone to revoke my grown-up card please. I am tired of being jaded, suspicious, scared and way shaky. It suxx.