Roaming Bird, I have enjoyed all your posts. In fact, my issue should never have been to make a post that everyone with a little insecurity would think I was talking about them. I do that too - always think I should be a little nicer, or a littler whatever. No, I had 1 problem, with 1 person that I have been trying to deal with since Jan. I mentioned it to a friend, then I mentioned it to another person, then I avoided coming here, then I tried to deal with it, then I tried to talk to a moderator, then I just snapped. I wrote this, then I decided it was a little okay to lose my temper, and I wrote them directly, harshly, and I got off the comp. then I banged around the house, then I talked to my husband, then I busted into tears, and then I felt better.

For nearly 2 months this hasn't been a place of sanctuary for me because I have lost some financial luxuries due to my mental illness and I felt like someone wasn't talking other peoples feelings into consideration.

Of course the truth is, I was just jealous of what they have.

Anyway, I came here tonight to take my lumps and get it over with for being rude, and instead I found I have made the wrong people think I was talking about them.

I am sorry. I should have handled the problem directly in the first place instead of trying to be subtle by writing this. NO - I hurt a lot of innocent people. We need to communicate with each other - especially we need to be able to come here and share with each other when we are having difficulty.

I hope no one that has responded to this post stops sharing as much as they were. I don't want to say who it was - that drama played out on another thread. But it wasn't anyone here.

Sorry.

I'll admit that I have not read every single reply to this thread, but I did have to take a few days off from this forum after being here every day. I was offended by some posts. It is not the same. Lately it seems very unsupportive and people are just being catty with each other. I don't like this. It is the first time I have had to put someone on an ignore list. This place was my sanctuary. And now I feel I can't post for fear of being torn apart. I pick and choose what I can read because the threads are just crazy now. I used to read EVERYTHING and feel like I can't anymore. That is not what this community is for. I'm not saying we need to baby each other and hide our true feelings. But the Bipolar community I remember here is supportive with constructive criticism, not being mean. Those who have been around longer I think understand what I am saying. Also, newer members should not feel like they should not post. That defeats the purpose of this forum. But we just need to be nicer to everyone, and if you don't have anything nice to say, please keep it to yourself. We all obviously have some emotional and mood issues. We don't need the fighting as well.