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Old Mar 14, 2016, 04:26 PM
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Originally Posted by buttercup12 View Post
Hey, I have a lot of same, similar feelings.

I'm more introverted but can be somewhat extroverted, so I'm a good mix, probably 60 % introverted 40% extro. BUT I also have social anxiety mixed with depression, so when that is in full swing I'm so inhibited, not "myself". I still go out and do things, i wont let it stop me because that would be worse.

I am married though but I still feel lonely, an emptieness inside that never goes away, and I always think if i find the right friends, or a group, or anything or anyone for that matter, that these feeling will go away. But it seems they are apart of me. even in the best of moments i think these feelings are gone and never coming back and then its always back. It must be so hard for him because I am so up and down. so needy, insecure and unstable at times. maybe half the time or more lol

I agree it is a weird and confusing place to be in but I think finding ways to accept and cope is the best thing to do like by finding hobbies and keeping busy as much as possible.
I'd probably say it's more of an 80/20 intro/extro split for me. I've written thread about how I worry about my apparent lack of ability to form connections with people - it's rare for me to think of it, or even try to make friends. Like I said, I've kind of romanticized it. It sounds so nice...

Yet I don't know what I want, and worry what I want is "wrong" or at least "lesser" in a sense. Maybe it's irrational, or part of some deeply entrenched beliefs.

Basically, I can't tell whether I want human interaction or not. Plenty of other people seem to be able to answer this with a yes or no, but not me.

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