Hey. I email my therapist between sessions. I tell him some of the stuff that I couldn't say to him in the session. I tell him some of the stuff I was too embarrassed to say. I answer questions that he asked me in session. Couldn't think what to say in session but managed to sort out an answer in between. I tell him some of my thoughts about the session sometimes.

Different therapists have different opinions about email.

Some therapists don't email clients. They may or they may not accept emails from clients but they don't email clients. I've had therapists who wouldn't give me an email address. I've had therapists who would accept emails from me but they would never respond to me by email. They would wait until my next session to discuss the email with me.

Some therapists do email but they send brief responses like 'thanks for your email we should talk about this in our next session. Some therapists will email proper responses.

It sounds to me that your therapist doesn't mind you emailing her but she has a policy that she won't email you back but she will talk to you in the next session about your email. I think that you should tell her that it feels awfully funny not to get a response from her. She might agree to send you a 'thanks for your email' acknowledgement of receipt - or she might not. I don't think that there is anything wrong with you feeling disapointed that you haven't heard a response, however.

When I send emails... I feel like I am sending him a little bit of my heart. Disclosing very intimate fears and the like that I'm very sensitive about. And then I wait... And I worry. Will he think I'm a freak? Is he freaking out? It can be really hard waiting... And waiting... And waiting...

If it is any consolation the waiting gets better over time as you see that she responds well and with kindness invariably. Takes some time though. Hang in there.