Today I was supposed to go to my dad's company to work(I am his part-time manager). But, due to miscommunication, I took the day off since he told me I will not have my off days during the weekends so I thought why not today I take one. In the morning, first thing he did was to open my room door to check if I was home(which parents do that to their 20+ year old kids?).

When he found me reading books, he raised his voice at me. Saying why he sees me at home all the time. Why don't I help him in the family business "daily". I just lost it and gave him a comeback, stating that I'm not a insane to be such a no-life workaholics like them(both my mom and dad). I am not build for "DAILY" work! Even if I take up a job, I'd just be working 5 times a week, like c'mon. Then he went on to blabber about I'm wasting my life away, like ya i don't know that. And that I'm a useless son, not helpful and stuff. It hurts me, knowing that due to my anxiety and depression issue I have the difficulty to make it up to them. But I realize, i should not be hurt. Not when they are bunch of hypocrite people who spend thousands of dollars on divorce cases, home decorations, foods, booze and stuff and they have the rights to educate me about life?

So what I did was, not caring what he told me, i scolded him back, laughed it off after he left work and continued reading my book. And I intend to do this often because the fact that I am extremely afraid of my dad. He have this firm and hostile attitude with his loud voice that gives me the chill. His life is messed up(married 3 times, had previous kids, bad character, cynical etc). So you can tell why I couldn't help but stand up against him. Did I do the right thing? Or do I sound like a spoil brat? Please tell me honestly if you can. I need to know to improve on myself. Should I belittle myself and apologize to him?

I'm just stuck here in this family because I need time to overcome my anxiety(or i dunno if it's my laziness or just depression) to find a job on my own and move to another place. So frustrating to live in a negative environment...