i do everything from inside my mind, i guess because i cant focus enough to sit down and learn how to read music... learn any scales... anything... so i just do it all by ear... but its something i really like so i can hyperfocus on it too...
its stimulating, somtimes i cant get the sounds right but i just try to say its something i can do to try to relax... its smthing ive always done, music i mean.. not the production stuff...
i wish i could learn scales though, so i could keep everything in the right scale.. perfectly...

i just share two more - its my favorite over all i made i think because its like a remix of a song i used to listen to a lot playing a video game "cars - gary numan " ?
and just some silly thing i was working on...

1, gary numan cars remix
(this one i dont have on youtube..)
https://soundcloud.com/loadedsounds/end-trail

2, boom boom boom boom boom boom


was a long time ago when i made it though so...
oh and i really think this one is cool.. i mean i like them all but whatever
https://soundcloud.com/loadedsounds/own-stuff

but yeah i cant use my studio monitors right now because of living situation so i cant really hear the bass that good ... trying not to drown the whole beat out with bass ... these headphones dont pick it up well..

if it wasnt for this stuff, i can listen to and remember how strong i am... i dunno where i would be...

edit:
PS;
i think soundcloud has my picture...