Much, much less and trust me I live my life. I keep an eye open for other guys, I travel, meet loads of fun people
I still see him at events but I don't try to meet him. We barely talk.

He's doing the usual stuff but it doesn't work anymore. He's still dating around, especially one very young chick. Good for him. He dropped hints that it's not serious with that other girl and I am sure he meant it for at least a few hours lol and he may mean it again in May on a Wednesday or a Saturday. It's all impulses of the moment. The guy is completely unaware of his own emotional life, of what he wants etc...

As u can tell my mindset has changed.

What kind of women accept to sit on a numbered seat to wait if they are picked (usually none of them is, but hey)?

A close friend told me to forgive him and that otherwise he'll end up alone. I told him that maybe that this is what he wants. Sure, I forgive him but I don't accept it and as far as I am concerned it's all pointless. Yes, he looks rather miserable on some of his facebook profile pics but it's homemade. When you can't make up your mind to a pathological level, you can't expect to be blissfully happy and I refuse to be dragged into this mess.