Pearlys, I think you should listen to your pdoc in the danger of analyzing yourself....It can make you insane and very much too over analytical ...I think you have to pick your days/day to recognize certain things, but it can be very dangerous to watch too closely.....You can become too unbalanced living for the approval of people that are too far left field and it will seem to unnormal.......My situation was different, I was forced out in my treatment, but that is besides the point I can see where it can make you really edgy and overall make you want to beat yourself up when we are great at that anyway. Someday, it will be so obvious MPD/DID that you can no longer deny it....Best advice would be to go on with life as normal, continue with a T and hopefully you got a good T from the beginning...Try to stay with the same T because eventually they will get the diagnosis correct, just make sure you are doing your part with disclosing, journaling help as well......I tend to think they (T) have good knowledge and mostly are waiting on us to open up....So make sure you are there for the right reasons .....A good therapist should now how to get you to open up and also be okay with slowing down and making T kind of fun and creative...If you don't wanna go full charge ahead on trauma work there are others things you can discuss that might help with determining dissociation, MPD/DID, you can talk about music, work, cooking, role play, enter groups a lot of different things really.