Hi I'm not really sure how to explain this. I've been in therapy since end of November and go every other week. At the last session my therapist asked me what things affect me on a regular basis. I started saying I didn't know and I don't talk about the bad stuff when she asked me why and gave this talk about how she hopes I can trust her I can't really remember much more all I remember is things looking dark and my mind was talking to me telling me how I should tell her about the csa but I physically couldn't speak and everything else was silent. All of a sudden I heard my therapist ask me what I was thinking which made me jump slightly and I could see my hands again and I had my hands in a fist with my nails digging into me. Normally I sit fidgeting with the sleeves on my jumper the whole time and the more anxious I get the more I fidget so I never sit completely still. I still couldn't tell her and I ended up saying about I need to cut my nails for work and she said it's a deflective answer. Normally I would respond but I just carried on saying about we need short nails for work. She then started talking about her nails have never been long as they break then I can't really remember much after that but I remember talking but can't remember what I was saying but I remember saying that I'm ok and she said in this really soft voice that she knows I'm ok and hearing her voice sort of brought me out of it. I was playing round with my sleeves the second time. Then the subject was changed I'm not sure who by though or how. Has anyone else experienced anything like this or knows what's going on. I'm going back on Monday as I've had a month off as she's been away and feeling really nervous about it cos of this