I'm really sorry you had this experience. Has anything like it ever happened before? It sort of sounds to me like you got emotionally overwhelmed. When my anxiety goes sky-high, I have trouble thinking straight, remembering things, speaking, and become alternately hyper or hypovigilant. Some people couch this in clinical terms, calling it "dissociation." It's a fairly common reaction to stress in survivors of CSA.
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