Cleo, Therapy is tough stuff. You have to trust and feel safe and depend on your T to help you. I did and still do the same things when it comes to difficult subjects or emotions. Sometimes I can't articulate all that is going on. CSA is such a difficult topic but when I finally was able to share it helped my T understand me so much better. Maybe you can tell her you would like to discuss something very important but you need to do it slowly at your own pace. It may feel worse at first but then it does get easier sometimes better sometimes just less scary or shameful. I think its great you are getting help and hope in time it will get easier. Good Luck