I am reluctant, I really am. I'm starting to feel like I can't even pay somebody to try and understand things from my perspective - what does that say about me? I just want to forget all about it. All of it. Things at home are reaching breaking point and nobody's coping well, but I can't even talk to you about that tomorrow because we're stuck in this weird place. This idiotic scenario where I want you to understand something that is clearly not understandable. Are you tired of working with me yet? I am good at being logical, I am good at being sensible, but I am not good with my own emotions. They are weird and wrong, and you don't get them any more than anyone else does, any more than I do, so shall we save ourselves the bother and just call the whole thing off?