Am so sad for you Crazy Hitch.
This betrayal hurts like Hell, but there is an end to the sorrow and pain you're feeling now.
You will come out of this and become stronger and wiser.
Focus on looking forward/ahead. Cling to hope for a better future and don't let go.

Am sorry you are hurting so deeply.
Keep venting and reaching out here.
Sending my care and hugs.