My god, you are so strong. Even with everything that has happened to you, you are still going. I'm awed.

I can't say anything for the meds, but have you tried doing some small relaxing habits. There is Emotional Freedom Technique that I just found, which was something we did when I went to some Tai-chi classes. There is the sylva method which in youtube came with videos. I do breath exercises and I understand. For years I had nightmares about my teeth falling out or losing them or getting diabetes and they all becoming black and having nerve damage. Logical has nothing to do with it. There is some protection that they give to boxers, it might be useful to you. I had a dentist who used something similar because he also grounded his teets until he got severe migranes and it helped him to avoid damage.

All my hugs and I pray for you. Don't let one bad therapist scare you. Just think about her like an asshole in the freeway that just crossed your path. Some people are like that but others are better.