I know what you mean. My pdoc and t are amazed that I can do so well at my job when I feel so bad. Lately though it is taking everything I have to physically go. I wake up an hour and a half before, but often I am not physically ready until I have 5 min. left. I have cried in the bathrooms. and when I get home. I honestly like what I do it's just the stress and bull from coworkers make it hard. But I say all that to say I know how hard it is, but sometime you just have to fake it and go. Don't feel guilty for doing what it takes to make it through the day. I never feel guilty when I am in the restroom crying. I just do the best I can. Hang in there. you got this