ok, so I called my T and we talked it out. He is not leaving me, he does however feel unadequate in helping me through this part of healing. It is not his area and he thinks that a trama psychologist would be more suitable for me. But he told me he is with me until I tell him otherwise, it is my decision on continuing with him or not. I told him that right now I cannot change therapists, and I can work through the inner child work, with him and with my group but I need him IRL to ground me and help me see what is real and what is in my past. I told him I need him for anger release also, and I get that this is not his field, but I need him to stay with me right now. So that is were we left it, and thanks for helping me see what a jerk I am when it comes to dealing with things like this! I am not good at it at all, I always run and just take the blame, talking to anyone in a authoritive place I cannot do, I just say what they want me say!!