Well technically i feel bad by default when that stuff happens, I dont intend to lie to myself or hide from reality so i was mostly investing energy into analyzing it to see what is the source of the issue and what i can do about it really :\

And i really dont like the idea of therapists, talking about such stuff face to face feels really scary, especially when you are supposed to tell your deepest secrets and feelings while you know nothing about that man and i am just to proud to do something like that.