I dunno, I have lots of years of this. Maybe ECT will be the answer.
I hear you about never giving up. I have always been stubborn and my psych issues haven't taken that from me. Although, I feel like a punch drunk boxer that just keeps getting up and not knowing why.
Thank you
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PDD with Psychotic Features, GAD, Cluster C personality traits - No meds, except a weekly ketamine infusion