So. The problem was, lately (the last couple of months) when my pdoc asked "how are you feeling" I felt like a whiner when I said "I feel like crap" so I usually said "Well, today is not a good day" or "Today I'm feeling particularly depressed" or I'd talk about the 1 good thing that happened during the week and pretend that actually made me feel better.
I discussed this with my T, and she said it's OK to say you're feeling like crap, even if you say that every week.
Today I went to the pdoc by myself (usually my mum accompanies me) so I thought "hey, room to discuss this". So I wrote pdoc a letter wherein I told him all of this. And during the session I actually gave him the letter. (Which was its own kind of anxiety-inducing).
His response was great. He basically said "So you're still feeling like crap" and said it was OK to say that, even if you say it every week.