Yep, I'm 49 and have been medicated since my mid 40s. I too feel a deadening of the joy I've had previously. I actually miss being hypo/manic. In particular I crave to once again be able to be creative and make art. People look at the fact I am now relatively stable and think I should have some happiness in that but they don't seem to understand.

Certainly it IS the medications. My psychiatrist told me this would would happen.

I want the excitement back but realize that it had come at great cost - which still affects me. I don't like my meds but know full well the mess my life would be in if I went off them.