Sorry this is long!

I've been in a serious relationship for roughly 8 months now with another girl. We both met while we were living and working in the US, and were together there for about 2 months before she had to return to her home country. About a month after she left I decided to join her, so I moved to be with her, and for the first few months it was fantastic.

However, not long after Christmas, she started working 2 different jobs and since then she's been gone most days/nights. We spend very little time together compared to when we first got together.

I have pretty bad anxiety, which I've always had medication for and never had any major flare ups or big issues as long as I was on my medication. Since moving to my GF's country, I had to quit my medication because I can't get it here. Basically, I have no health insurance here and I've been trying very hard to find work but it's been way more difficult than I imagined it would be.

So things have been a little stressful. I dealt with the withdrawals pretty well. I got over feeling sick all the time, and thought "ok great, I can do this" and I was excited because I was feeling great for a while. I thought maybe I was at a point in life where I was actually better and wouldn't need the meds again.

But since my GF has been working so much, and I've been so alone (I don't know anyone else where we live) and the typical symptoms of over-thinking, worrying, jealousy, paranoia etc. have all slowly started to roll back in.

The past few weeks have been especially bad. My bad mood/feelings have clearly been affecting my GF. She knew from the beginning about my condition and always said she could handle it if it got bad. But I don't think she realized just how bad I could get. She tries really hard not to get stressed with me, but she does snap sometimes, and I completely understand. I've told her that I don't expect her to be a magic miracle worker with me. I love her so much and I'm grateful for everything she does for me.

She has also been starting to show signs of having something of her own. She has never had any mental illness or conditions, but I think she has been developing some kind of depression because she works so much and is exhausted, and she has a lot of general life stress (for example, we're a same-sex couple and her family don't approve, but that's a whole other story), and she actually really hates being in her home country but she can't afford to be anywhere else right now.

I want to be supportive of her, but it's so hard with my own stuff getting in the way. Any tips?

Last of all, I have an option to return home to my own country where my family lives. My mother has offered to book me a flight. This would allow me to see a doctor and get my prescription back on track, and also I'd probably have a much higher chance of finding employment, so it would be nice to not have to rely on my GF to support me financially. But I feel so scared about it because I really don't want to leave my GF for so long (she wouldn't be able to afford to join me until maybe Dec/Jan and long-distance for me is very hard). Even with my medication, I'm worried I'll still feel so alone/anxious. Also, I know my mother doesn't have a lot of money, so I really have been leaving this as a last resort.

I just get stuck sometimes worrying about how to get through all of this. I know it's a lot, and this doesn't even cover all of our issues. But any advice/opinions/tips would be incredibly appreciated!