Well I saw Nancy again yesterday and talked again about Steve. She told me that they found out it was an Aneurysm. I guess he had a major headache and his blood pressure was up. I start to see my new T on the 13th. I will miss talking with Nancy but am ready to move on. Last night was rough night and I tried to call the crisis line for OGC but my phone went dead and I couldn't find a pay phone that accepted call backs. I made it through and will see her tomorrow. They are having a grief debriefing group on Friday but I am possibly having surgery and if no surgery I'm getting my stitches out so I'm not going to go. I am switching clinics because it is so hard to walk in there and know that I'm not there to see Steve.

Jbug