I'll just chime in with the others on how much I can relate to this...don't think I could have described it better! What floors me is thinking I know what the problem is, but having no clue how to fix it. Or trying to make a change and feeling like I made progress, but then something (usually myself) gets in the way. It involves a LOT of facepalm moments.

I don't really think I can offer very good advice since I feel like I'm in the same boat, but keep trying! I guess that's all we can do. I hope you find your way out of that rut soon though.