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Originally Posted by connect.the.stars
It sounds like you have dysthymia? I only say this because my T told me it's what I have. It's characterized by when things don't ever feel right but you are still able to get up and "function" by getting up and out of the house, etc. So long story short, it is mild chronic depression.
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That's what I tend to think my problem is. My functioning that regard is almost automatic - a kind of restlessness. I need to get out of the house every day. True, I almost never feel "right", but this need to act somehow has me going every day.
Depressive rant for the day: Anytime someone talks about how slow, stupid, and easy to manipulate the "masses" are, I just want to curl up and die. Or die some other way. Because I know I'm just part of the mindless herd and it scares and disgusts me. I want to be safe like anyone else, but I know I'm very easy to manipulate. One good thing about avoiding people and the external world altogether is it lowers that risk. But I'm still disgusted with myself that I wasn't born intelligent enough to be the one doing the manipulating, or at least see through it by myself. Another facet of my own sense of worthlessness, I guess.