Hi Secret. It's great to see your posts again.

Right now, I don't have too many suggestions on what to do during work... this is because I'm going through the same thing... so I can empathize with you. I don't have to deal with it at my internship because it's a fast paced environment in which I am putting other peoples' needs before my own... but at my regular job, it's horrible.

All I can tell you is that you should be proud of yourself for sticking with it and getting through the day. I don't normally define things into clear-cut steps, but I will tell you this and then explain what I mean-- even if you feel like crap, you are still doing step 2. You see, I have assigned 3 steps to life with depression/anxiety/etc. They are:

Step 1: Not doing it at all.
Step 2: Doing it, but hating it because it's agonizing.
Step 3: Doing it and enjoying it.

Presently when it comes to my job and most things in my life, I am a step 2 person. I think back to when I was a step 1 person, stuck at home everyday because my problems took over. Congratulations on doing it, but hating it. It's okay. It's a very important step.

I hope you keep posting.