Desperate probably doesn't even describe how much I want help. I have started so many "diets". I started my last one on November 30, 2015. I was SURE this would stick. This would be my last "diet". It was going to be a lifestyle change. I was going to loose the weight and for good! I was going great. Even made it through Christmas with close to nothing gained. In total, I ended up losing double digit pounds. A record for me, really. I got down to a certain weight and boom, done. Stopped working out in January 2016 and traded my healthy eating habits for crap ones. Yet again... I don't get what causes me to stop. Is it my depression? Was I hurting somewhere? Did I get bored? What in the HELL caused me to stop!? I was doing so good! I am afraid to weigh myself now because I have been binge eating for months now. When I say binge eating it is no joking matter. I sit in bed and eat bags and bags of Easter candy (as of the holiday season). I can't stop. I feel as if I am out of control. Please say you understand this feeling. I have been struggling with this binge eating since I got sober in 2011. Since December 2011 I have gained a lot of weight.

Help. Please... I am DESPERATE!