Thanks for the reply RiversX. Glad to know I'm not the only one.

Yes, Sam's site was a real eye-opener and got me thru the last divorce with my life intact, as well as some excellent help from a marriage counselor, who after 6 months told me to RUN!

That's why this last attempt at love was so devistating to me. I feel like I've slept with Dracula and not been bit. My hair is standing on end, I'm nauseous and hear the ocean in my ears. keep waking up at 4am... unable to go back to sleep. It seemed too good to be true so I kept running the developments of the relationship by my T. So I know I didn't make a desperate grab for a warm body. This guy made out like everything I wanted - all the same likes, hobbies... and knew him for years so had no reason to believe it wasn't so.

I'm Agoraphobic with PTSD. I should be on a/d, but due to my neurological issue (TOS) I'm on so many other heavy meds I can't add it to the mix safely. Tried cymbalta most recently - horrors!!

Again, thanks so much, sounds like you've walked a dangerous road. Best of luck in your journey!

Anne