I'm so good at panicking myself. No word from my bf since a bit before 5. I stopped texting him, otherwise I'm afraid I'll end up in a depressed tantrum like Monday morning. I keep checking to see if he's distracted and that's why he isn't texting me, but all I can see is that he is logged in on a Playstation. It could be mine, it could be his. I hope he turned on netflix or something and fell asleep, but I worry that it's worse. I'm afraid of him not being there when I get home. It terrifies me and I don't even have any evidence that he has ever considered it.

I now have no obligations until my pdoc appointment in the morning. I just hope this all goes away soon.