I wonder how people who are autistic would respond to this thread. Maybe they are the ones you should be apologizing to. People trust that this is a safe site to visit and you may have caused them to think otherwise because of the selfish way you chose to have your needs met. My response may seem harsh but I think posing as "Autistic Anna" to get attention is disgusting, and I would tell you this to your face. I also wonder if this long post is more attention seeking. What about the book you wrote and made available online? All fake? Guess the friend who helped you "write" it was fake too. You need help. I hope you get it very soon.