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Originally Posted by omegalamed
Cashart, i have heard others say they would not want to bring their children up in this world. However that is selfish on our part cause people are born and die when the good Lord decides to take them home and how He chooses. You are concerned your children are saved, you rather they die first. That is fear. If you believe God gave you your children then place them in his trust and care. We tend to forget they may be our children but they are individuals with their own will and choices, we do not make them for them nor are we responsible for them when they become adults. Concentrate on your spirituality and not your religion, there is a difference. In others words trust your maker and live in the moment not tomorrow in your head that is not here yet. Be grateful for the now and that takes the power back from worry. i hope this helps, tc
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Thank you for your solicited advice. I agree entirely and it helps a lot. I also admit that these thoughts sprout from selfishness and fear. I just don't know how to overcome them and I fear them escalating. I have, at one point, heard the voice of God telling me to do bizarre things (but never towards hurting another person). I am quite certain I am not psychotic and I am hearing no voices that interact with me so I doubt it will become a problem. Still, I fear telling my therapist about this because if something did happen, I fear it would be pinned on me and I would miss out on the pleasure of raising my children. I am self loathing at the moment. I'm not sure what to do.