I think you do need to share these thoughts with your therapist. I think sharing them will take away their power. The more you keep them inside the more afraid you are going to become. Fear builds on itself. If you can't share with her, continue to share here. Share with somebody! And the only thing you can do, I think, is challenge these thoughts. When they come in, challenge them as unreal. No one can read your thoughts, and your children are safe. I'm dealing with anxiety about my son too; now that I lost my husband I feel anything is possible. I'm most afraid that he will get into drugs and die exactly how his father did. But every time I think that, I just shrug my shoulders and say what will be will be. I can't control the future. I can only hope that everything works out but if it doesn't I know I'm strong enough to handle it. And you are too. You're strong enough to handle this. They are just thoughts.

I wish you peace! Know that I love you and I'm thinking of you.