Yes, this was my first serious boyfriend, we dated for a little over 2 years. I am alone because of that , but also I have no friends here to hang out with or to help me with my problem. well, thanks for trying to help..but i've had nothing but people trying to tell me that it will end for the past 9 months and it never does. All i do is wait, wait , wait, all the darn time. im sick of it. I might as well face the facts, i'll be this way forever. And i know the way I am, and the way I feel, it will never end, unless there is a change for the better. Its not that I dont want to feel good, its that I cant. been in this misery now for 9 months, I dont see an end and I dont see better days. apparently this is the future I have to look forward to.