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Hello. My name is Len. I'm unsure if any of you remember me, since I was absent from this site for a long time. I was mainly using this site during my days in the hospital, when I recovering from surgery. But after that came and went, I got home and slumped back into my typical routine.

I’ve been silent for a multitude of different reasons. However, the main one of these being my episodes of Depression. It is now almost daily that thoughts of taking my own life is brought into consideration. I recently, and unfortunately, did my first attempt of self harm. It was something that I’m still incredibly ashamed about. I wish I could’ve gone about it in a different way. I wonder if everyone thinks that in hindsight. Either way, because of my Depressive episodes, I’ve been falling back in school. Since Spring Break is approaching, I’ve been working extremely hard to get all of my work caught up and to study for all these exams I’m cramming into one day. It’s all a lot of stress.

I’ve been trying my best to distract myself, it’s just my friends are always so busy and off doing their own thing that I really have nothing to do. I eventually ran out of options, and remembered this site. I thought I should come back, and I’m glad I did. I’m just sorry that I came back under such bitter circumstances. Even if you don’t know me, it’s a pleasure to meet you, and thank you so much for reading this post of me just ranting and rambling.

I'm just somewhat confused, I suppose. Some of these elements of Depression have never occurred to me before. It's never been so bad that I had to use self harm as a way of coping. Do any of you know of ways I can stop the urges of doing stuff like that again? How did all of you cope with Depression? Any advice is very much appreciated.

Have a wonderful day!