For the last four weeks flashbacks and anxiety have been troubling me. In the last two weeks is has been getting much worse. I am at the verge of panic most of the time, nauseas, can't eat and desperate to escape what only lives in my mind. This week I have been having suicidal ideation so I am getting worried. I am beginning to lose my ability to cope with daily life; work, university etc. It feels like I am having a mental breakdown and am going to snap soon.

My options, as I see it, are to defer university for this semester and take the time to sort through some stuff or just press on. I can't stop working. I am scared. I know this is PTSD stuff but i am too frightened to even begin posting in another sub-forum. The pressure on my mind is immense.