well...
please please dont do the self harm route... it gets out of control fast...
i feel ashamed about doing it... i hate myself about it... and i try to go about it other ways, i just end up feeling so horrible that i slip... it gets worse each time...
last week i cut deeper than before and i dont think the scar will ever heal... the more i look the more i can see all the scars from over the time... most have healed pretty well but you can still see them if you look...
its so easy to get out of control with this because it feels real... but its not a good thing and even though it seems to make you feel better in the moment it makes things worse... its been a few days since i last did it and i just dont know why i do that stuff to myself... i just wanna feel better, why cause more pain? so confusing...
sorry to write about it, i just wish i never started with something like that... i can go a little while without doing it and pressure just builds up and i hit a snapping point... sometimes its a few days, sometimes months, but seems like i keep failing .. but im going to keep fighting and trying, there is a better way to handle this stuff.. and i know i can feel better one day... i just have to focus on treatment and recovery...
im trying to realize that im just sick, it doesnt make me a bad person... but i have illness that i have to try to live with...

im glad you are back, being here doesn't cure anything but it really helps sometimes... has kept me from self harm and things before just from having a little support from people who know how i feel...

i just wanna say i know how tempting it can be to do something drastic to release the pain, but its a wildfire that can't be controled no matter who you are it will always get out of control...

next time you feel urge to self harm can you come here and try to talk it out instead?
just write down whatever is going through your mind and try to get it out that way...

i'll be here to support you as much as possible

exercise is good for depression if you can get yourself to do it...
meditation is good too it helps you control your mind better ...

try to use hobbies and things that interest you to distract yourself...
i wish i had more encouraging things to add, i just dont want anyone to hurt themselves... its not worth it