So I've been seeing my current pdoc for about a year and have seen no improvement, actually I've deteriorated during the course of my illness. So being frustrated I went and in for a second opinion without telling my current pdoc, but the new pdoc I went to (is a prof btw and 80+ years old) gave me a different set of medications and wants to see me again. The problem is I'm not sure what to do, to stay with my current pdoc or move to the new one. I'm so conflicted because they both seem to be confused about treating my specific type of bipolar(rapid cycling, mixed episodes) but the prof has obviously more experience but he is further away (about an hour an half and I don't drive) and my current psychiatrist has made concessions for me to see her and is half an hour away. I'm just so tired of being sick, in and out of hospital, of taking dozens of different medications, of waking up in morning and not knowing what my mood is going to be like. Plus my dad is putting so much pressure on me to get better, I'm putting pressure on me to get better, its like this cycle never ends.